Therapy has always just depressed me more. I start getting this feeling like... "Oh awesome, the only people I can get to care about the things really going on with me, are getting paid... sweet."

Yeah I know I should get help, but the problem is. I don't want to let my family and friends know just how depressed I am. It would just make them feel bad. Which I don't want. So I am hoping that here, I will be able to talk to other people etc, at least enough to get my motivation up to do something else.