Sorry to be a downer, just don't read this, it doesn't matter at any rate. I try to be more positive but I need to vent.



I was getting ready for a conference I'm going to tomorrow and while looking for some notes I found some old stuff I wrote and I found an old list of goals/things I wanted to accomplish I wrote a few years back, hadn't dated it.

I'm really a failure.
I haven't accomplished anything worthwhile in my life and I probably never will. I'm a rubbish friend, I'm idiotic, I'm thoroughly messed up and too inpatient with recovery if you can even call it that because I'll always doubt if I can ever become something normal or better.
It's sad. People around me have things they've actually done in their lives and I'm just a lowlife forgotten idiot. I mess up people's lives unintentionally and I'm a waste of space.