((( JMO ))) By focusing on how to avoid another panic attack...you may be feeding the anxiety and OCD ....maybe...Do you have the ANXIETY AND PHOBIA WORKBOOK??? If not please go get it...well not at 12 a.m but do get it it can help with coping skills ...You have a LOT of hard things you are dealing with and anyone would be overwhelmed even those folks I hear of called....*normal* ..We are here

HUGE HUGS