Thanks so much for your support. I am back to irritable today...which means I'm hiding out in my room to avoid snapping on someone (and I live with my husband's parents...so things get dramatic if I don't escape). Something like the Maury Povich show on the tv blaring through the house, is making me extremely uncomfortable. I think I am getting a headache. It's stupid. BUT I do have good news. I haven't made an appointment yet, but I did write my husband an email about how I have been feeling. So, at least I'm not hiding it anymore. And I did take my son to the doc today to get his flu shot. It is something I have been avoiding for two months, cuz I hate doctors so much. My sister-in-law went with me, so I wouldn't back out. And even though I'm not the one getting the shot, my hands shook the whole time. I am so scared of the doctor's office. I've been thinking a lot and I think lonegael is right. All this stress is making my moods worse. I think if I just try really hard to cut back on my stress, these mood swings will calm down. Living with my in-laws, going to school, having my husband gone and mean to me half the time, and then the baby...I just gotta step back...and escape from stress if I need to. I might have to live here another few months, but rather than sitting here mad over a loud tv...I could take Gabe to the mall. And I'm not going to worry about my class until I am ready. If I fail it, it's not the end of the world. My Hubby and I will have to work on our communication issues together (but I have opened up the lines for that one). And the baby...I just gotta enjoy him. And if he gets overwhelming, like last night...just let him sleep in his own room. It won't kill him to be alone for a hour. DEEEP Breath IN deeeeeep breath OUT....stress free day. I can do this