How awful (((Berries)))! I feel like I've been sinking down a drain too 'cause I've been struggling with SI again. I haven't done it, and that's why it's a struggle; I want to, but it's not okay and I know I shouldn't. It's so frustrating! Can't really give you much advice...but I can help rescue you from drowning. I can sail in on a Help boat and throw you a floating ring! Hope you feel better very soon.