Ok, so my husband had asked me to go to marriage counseling before I decided to end our 5 yr marriage. I made an appointment and we went yesterday. Only problem is she didn't even see him. When she called me in I just assumed that she would see him after me or call him in later. She and I are talking and I am explaining to her everything that has been going on. For example, he just got back from an 11 mo. tour in Afghanistan, he lies, we are both very suspicious of the other, MONEY, etc. Anyway, so she starts asking about my family and growing up. It is then that I start getting real light headed and feel like I'm going to hyperventilate. When we start discussing my older sister I got really upset. My face and fingers started going numb! We discuss the abuse I recieved from my sister and all the traumatic things that I went through starting at the age of 10. There are SO many things that I don't remember past that age. It's like from the age of 10 til now really didn't exist. I would like to know what happened during those years but am terrified to death at what I may discover. I don't ever remember being sexually abused but would not be surprised if I were. The reason I say that is b/c I was very promiscuous and started having sex at a young age. She had asked me not to make any decisions on divorce until we have talked for several months. I was diagnosed with OCD, which was no real shocker BUT also Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Which actually surprised me a bit. I guess my question here is what do I do with this? This is a little disturbing for me b/c I love my sister so much and consider her my best friend. Any suggestions or comments????? How do I tell my sister she is the reason I am like I am?? Or do I say anything to her? Thank you for your time. Sorry this was so lengthy.