It has been a full 6 weeks now since I have done any self injury or had suicidal thoughts. Woo Hoo! I find 4 cocoa gel tabs a day on good days and 7 or 8 on bad days keeps my mood above the danger zone. It is working better then I could ever have dreamed. I did notice that yesterday when I only took 2 doses my chocolate cravings came back like they were before this experiment started. I have to wonder what it is that my body is missing that chocolate replaces.

Today at my group meeting the gal who was mean to me apologized in front of everyone. I told her it was no problem, I get over things. Later her boyfriend told me she had been beating herself up over it and I told him to tell her it was fine, I understand that these things happen. It did feel good to get the apology though. I also go a chance to explain to them that not every borderline person is the same just like not every bi-polar person is the same. All in all it went well.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson