Beads, it's okay. It was easily missable! You're forgiven

Of course I understand. How crap would I be if I didn't? I'm still working on seeing what other people see in me... Getting there slowly!

I managed to report my adoptive family to the police. Now THAT was the scariest moment of my life. And probably the worst and most angry moment of my life. I'll write more detail when I'm not quite so tired. But yeah. It wasn't easy and it certainly didn't go how anyone expected. The police were complete s--ts after they figured that they knew me. They nearly had me spill everything, but once they started b-tching towards me, I clammed up and almost spat right back at them. I almost yelled at them where to go, but I kept my cool and just left the room leaving them with my childhood diaries.. Or what's left of them anyway

I cried for days. Still haven't heard anything. But had a dream that my Twin came crying to me that they have to go to court about this. So I'm hopeful, but I've also been having dreams about people trying to kill me and such, so that's just scary. I'm just hoping. It's all I can do now.

I just feel like I put myself through all the flashbacks, like they deliberately probed me to remember Exactly what Thomas did and tell them exactly what he did. I said it in a cocky tone to cover up my fear and upset over it. I hated them for doing it. This was after they realised they knew me. I say there and felt like punching them. I hated them and have vowed that no matter how bad something is that might happen to me, I will never EVER go to the police again. Never.

So that's it for now. I'm sorry. I'm cold and tired. Need rest.

How are you getting on Beads?

Sending hugs your way