They say that deaths come in 3's. My grandpa just died the other day...the 3rd death for me in the past year. My mom died last August, my aunt died in October, and now it's July and my grandpa died. What a year. I feel kinda out of tune. I know I should be grieving over my grandpa, but all his death has done is bring back the raw emotion of losing my mother. I've been able to handle death pretty well in the past, I've even been handling the most recent deaths except for one--my mother's. For some reason I can't let go of her, and I know that's not a good thing. Yes, she's gone and free of pain, but that doesn't make it easier. I want the pain of her death to stop but I keep reliving watching her die, the day my sister came to get me and tell me that my mother was dead...all of that. I just don't know how to let go.