Another Day Another Down,

Also, before I give you my insight, I agree with Vicki, try to consult with a Psychologist; this will help you understand what you are going through.

I was reading your journal, which is a good idea to express your emotions. It seems to me that your actions are similar to mine. I suffer from bipolar and ADHD. I agree with everyone here you may have bipolar.

If you do have bipolar, I understand and can relate, its VERY hard to control your ups and down. Its almost like there is no filter and you cant stop, you go on and on and on... Its not easy, right?

Good or bad, high and lows are very wearing on the body.

When I experience mania I feel overwhelmed with uncontrollable anger or euphoria. This mania can last for hours, weeks, months and years. The energy that you had cleaning your house is generally a coping mechanize for the last attach and it’s a way you can release some of the left over energy from the attack.

Let me tell you, I have made and axx out of myself and have had to apologizes and have lost several jobs due to my disease.

If you ever want to chat, I am here to listen!!!