Marjan, I would definately talk to your doctor about getting something to help you sleep at night. It is a battle I struggle with and I know that minor things become major when you're not fully rested.

It's really good to have long term goals, but not at the risk of over-looking those minor battles you win every day. Try to be content that you've made it through another day. This economy has put a lot of things in perspective for me. I have a roof over my head and food on my table. All of my necessities are being met, I have a lot to be grateful for.

As for being lonely, we're here for you. In your day to day life, if a pet is not a possibility, concider volunteering at an animal shelter. You'll meet a lot of caring people, who knows where it may lead.

If you spend your time dwelling on where you should be in your life, you're not enjoying where you are. We cannot fight the clock, spend your time and energy working on those things you can change like diet, exercise and a healthy lifestyle.