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I could have written a very similar post as yours. I have had some of the same responses as you recieved. It isn't always that easy as making new holiday plans for yourself or "getting over" anything. I'm not putting down all the caring responses you got, but , for me , these don't work. I cannot NOT be with what's left of my "family" for Thanksgiving because of the guilt from me and anger it will bring from others. It isn't always easy to distance yourself from toxic people. In a perfect world, we could all have a peaceful, calm holiday. Please don't time yourself for healing. It will happen, when it happens. Don't judge yourself harshly or second guess your feelings. Maybe giving to others , as in volunteering at a shelter would bring some satisfaction. I wish I had good answers; I struggle with it every year. I wish , for all of us, this year could be different.
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