For some reason I keep finding ways to screw this up. My GF came over after work and I made her homemade soup and gave her my warm pajamas to wear. I then gave her a back rub and started to rub her feet. She said that she was going to sleep over but after like 2 hours she decided to go home because her mom was being all weird. She has to lie about where she is when she sleeps over. In all of almost two years this would've only been the third time she has spent the night. But this time her mom asked for the address where the girl lives that she was supposedly sleep over at. She got all paranoid and left. I got all pissed off because she pretty much lied to me about sleeping over. Well the other day when I got fired I kicked my glass table (upsidedown fishtank) and it broke. There was a bunch of glass still on the table that needed to be knocked out and cleaned up. I know I have anger issues and a lack of selfcontrol when I get to a certain point. I ended up punching the glass and cutting my finger so deep that you can see the bone. She was packing up her stuff as if we were breaking up and she was grabbing pictures and such. I grabbed this picture frame and threw it against the wall. It's a frame that she got me for our one year anniversary. After she left I went out and drank a few beers to calm down. I realize that I'm a total a-hole. I REALLY want to change for the better. Should I let her go or should I just try harder?