Wow! With that sort of response to a question, no wonder you have trouble opening up! Emotions can be really hard to identify, because many people are really only aware of the way that their body reacts to a situation - arousal - and not to the fine tuned interpretation of it. Normally you get a flash of physical reaction which calls forth emotional associations, and those can go on and on, and help us identify what we felt, but als keep us mired in negativity if we aren't carefull. So for some what others do in less than a second - feel response - make associations - identify emotion, others need far more time for. Some of us need to send out assessments, take a vote, fill out the environmental impact forms, before we can start guessing what emotion actually made its appearance. I'm sure you have a lot a trouble with this, but there are a lot of ppeople who can't do it because they have, in affect, been trained not to. Emotions are scarey stuff. Take some huggs with you and use them if it helps you sort things out