The conference was fine- it wasn't a work thing, though. Out of work general interest thing I'm involved with.

Thanks everyone, but I just feel useless. People around me, my friends, do things with their lives and have done things with their lives. I haven't done anything, all the dreams I've had are now impossible to achieve. I don't to actually achieve something worthwhile, not something small or trivial. I have nothing to show for my life except scars and how ****** a person I am.

Stuck in a rut, I guess.