You know what, I completely understand what you're going through. I can't stand talking to people and I have no idea why. People I don't know, anyway. My friends and family are fine, but I'm hiding from them too. You said you long for someone who will listen and pay attention. We will! We all want someone to be ourselves in front of, someone who'll find that part of us hidden away. I'm here for you, and you don't have to hide from us.