@ Berries... I have had the same feelings that you experience so i knowwhere you are coming from... You know when i think about stuff i say well i have a nice laptop, a dsl connection, places to visit, t.v shows to watch, good education... and there are people who say 'Be positive' and you will view your life differently... but those people dont know... i say this cos such people havent had depression... to them being positive is like turning on a light switch... and for someone whose had bad experiences, someone whose been trying to make their life better and never finding it easy it is NOT possible to just switch gear and be positive... So Berries i think you should certainly not feel isolated in this cos there are other people who feel the same way as you... You should keep sharing here and never hesitate to write...