((((((((((MUE)))))))

I am so sorry that all of this is going on. I cannot tell you how much I relate to everything you have said. All of the "house" problems, unexpected money things, baby peeing on the mattresses, clearing out the cabinets etc and the final straw ending in SI feelings and meds. I HAVE to say, I dont know what state you live in, but you have to be doing A LOT worse than a meltdown and SI feelings for a mother to legally lose her child. I cannot imagine a therapist, and you sound like youve got a pretty good one, would tell you that losing your child would be the next step and you are not fit! Your honesty and abiilty to get good help makes you an EXCELLENT mother. And...you didnt SI. That is a BIG deal.

Id tell t about what you are feeling and doing. ANd, if it would help to tell you, I told dt a lot worse things that I did in my house (including SI) and she was a very judgemental type and she never told me I wasnt fit to be with them. Just to explore other ways of handling all of the stress. NO NO NO! Do NOT be afraid to tell t! You have full custody, no one is taking that away.

And,you know, I think you have handled all of the stressors rather well. One meltdown? I know a real lot of mothers with kids all ages and even the best moms I know have had some pretty bad meltdowns.

Please, be gentle with yourself, MUE . Youve been through a lot. Take some peaceful time for yourself and your daughter, too. You SO deserve it

How old is she? Im sure you posted it and I dont remember....