I wrote this poem to/about my girlfriend but haven't read it to her. I'm losing her and im dying because of it. I don't know if this belongs here but I really just wanted to get it out. Here it goes.

Heart on a string and back on the ropes,
Losing for nothing my dreams and hopes,
Regretting my actions or lack thereof,
Considering losing this feeling of love,
Not sure where I am or where I'll end up,
Needing to finally shut up and man up,
The blink of an eye turns it all black,
Shaken to my foundations I'm starting to crack,
Heartache unbearable seeing her face,
Nowhere to go no way to displace,
My past back to haunt me as I knew it would,
Would turn back the hands of time if I could,
My own shortcomings turning my life to ****,
Torn in my chest becase my love wants to split,
What have I become and why can't I be proud,
Living my life with my head in a cloud,
I've said it before over and over again,
Can't blame her for not thinking I can,
Filled with Pity, loathing and shame,
Throwing my destiny like it's just a game,
I don't do a thing but think of you,
Needing to prove my desire is true,
Just give me a month and I swear you will see,
An undeniable change for the better in me,
Must swallow my pride and admit I was wrong,
So I can be with her for longer than long,
Nothing I can say I must sit and wait,
And hope she remembers that feeling of fate.