Just to fill you in a bit, I fell into a bit of a depression and didn't take my responsibilities as a man seriously. I was unable to find work, and generally just being lazy and unresponsive to her attempts to help me. I'm still unemployed, even though I'm trying to find work. I can feel that her love for me is still there, but nowhere near where it was just a few short weeks ago. I wish there was a word to describe the regret, self-loathing, foolishness that I feel right now but I don't believe one's been created yet.