(((((((turquoisesea))))))

I am so sorry that you have to work on your day off. Could you get the person you are covering for to work for you on another day so that you still get a day off?

You are not worthless or a failure! Your urges to si look to be a response to the stress you are under. But you sound determined to keep yourself safe. Is there anyone you can talk to? Can you call your T for support? Is there anything you can put off for right now so that you don't feel so overwhelmed?

I hope you feel better when you wake up tomorrow and don't feel like you are going to get fired.

Please take care of yourself.