omg...I thought someone had been spying on my life. with all you ladies...what is it about mothers and daughters? I was the same way with mine right til the end. it seemed like I was a gluton for punishment. always going back. but I do know one thing. My mind is clear and so is my heart. I did everything I could to make her love me. I will never tell you to back away from your mom. To me no matter what she was still my mom and it was my duty to keep her in my life. only after she passed could I move on. Hang in there..I am here for you anytime