I went out tonight and bought make-up for the first time in almost 15 years. I have no idea if I even bought the right things. But for some reason I wanted make-up. I don't even know if I'll be able to put it on. I haven't looked in a mirror since I don't know when. For some reason I thought I could handle using the compacts mirror to put it on. Feel guilty for even spending the money on it. I spent all of $10 on 2 things and I have the money right now to buy something. But I still feel so guilty to buy myself anything. Just like I'm not worth the trouble or something. I spent an hour in wal-mart walking up and down like deer caught in headlights. I have no clue what I was even doing. But I wanted it, it made me feel kind of special.