Hi BlueMoon,
This board is just fine. If your T understands and works with dissociation then she will be just fine if it takes place. She will know how to handle it. Do not worry about what you say or do not say. The T should also knows about the amnesia that accompanies these issues and how to obtain the information. It sounds like your last T did not have the skills necessary to assist you with your needs. I have found Ts are like auto mechanics. They can all work on your car, but not all of them can tune the engine correctly.
Your post made perfect sense. Just try to relax. I am sure your new T wants to help the real you, not someone that is trying act a certain way. You will do just fine. Take care and let us know how it goes.
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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
I am not sure which board to post this on but I think it fits here. I am seeing a new t and I am going to talk to her on monday about what my fears are doing trauma work. I have a lot of questions for her. But while I was reading some responses on another board about questions I can ask her I realized something really big that keeps me from going deeper. I havent ever put it into words, but I want to typw it out here.
I know when we go into the deeper feelings and trauma work that my t is talking about I will dissoc. I will go pretty quickly and it is very hard for me to stay present. So, when/if I do I am afraid of what I might say or do, or that I might be silent and I might not remember what happened. I want her to tell me everything I said or did. I am afraid I will say/do something really stupid. I dont know this t so well. My last t wasnt that nice about things I didnt remember in session. I tried to cover it up and say I did this or that for this or that reason when the truth is, I didnt recall what happened. Even if it was only a brief thing. I want this new t to tell me everything. I want to know what she will do and if I seem different to her. I am really scared that this will happen. I know at some point it will no matter how I try to pull myself to stay present. I hope this makes some sense.
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