No wise words but take care, ((( Blue ))) I know how bad it feels. I've lost track of how many therapists I've ever had and I don't even know if I like this one. And even if I'm still so hurt and I'll forever bare the injuries and scars dealt to me by the past, there's some good in life- friends, the odd moments of fun that I get. Life isn't all bad.
You're a strong person, I'm sure you're sick of hearing this but I think you'll get through it. Recovery is a hard, difficult, unfair and painful path but it's a doable one that I'm beginning to travel too.
Take care, Blue. You matter a lot to lots of people on this site as well.