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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
(((((MUE)))) You'll do it. I have faith in you. I have a feeling that your ex was very much in the way of you furthering your healing. Now that the obsticle has been removed (sort of) maybe more healing can take place. Even at a more rapid pace than when you had to deal with everything else. But I so know that feeling of being overwhelmed with it all.
And, I find the teenage years come with an intense love for the people they are becoming. I try not to take the teenage drama all too seriously and just tell myself we are having hormonal moment here.....  |
Why do I feel as though I prefer the obstacle...even with all the negativity and destruction, it was a welcomed distraction.
I am having a rough morning. I was hoping today would be a better day. I just dropped my daughter off to CCD and am bawling my eyes out....
Listening to a song, really loud.....and thinking about my dad. Although he was abusive when I was younger, he was a wonderful person as an adult - and we were so close - so I'm so conflicted about it all....and he passed away 2-1/2 years ago, and I still feel like I haven't dealt with it all.
The lyrics.....as I imagine my dad in that casket...."Let me feel your heavy hand...I will clean your F-N mess and leave no trace of evidence......I am losing you again, let me out and let me in...cuz you're not alone here, not at all, let me belong here, break my fall".....I am a mess today.