Skeksi- I think I feel the same as you do about my T.

Right now I am working on creating a bond with my T. And I am scared about doing so because once I feel that bond, once I feel that emotional connection with him I will feel dependant on him. In a way I am afraid of that happening. I don't want to be 'rejected' either. Who wants their feelings hurt? But I'd rather be rejected now. I'd rather be pushed away before I become emotionally involved. Because after that, to me, if you remove yourself from my life then I feel abandoned. Again.

Not that I am completely alone. It's not like I put all my emotions or needs onto one person. It's just feeling that missing piece. That void. And it's something I truely struggle with. Having this happen and then leaving me to wonder why? what did I do wrong?