Blue, I'm so glad that you're liking ftt! When I first started with my T 6 months ago, I found that we were a good fit, and then I was so ready to really dig in and get to work! I got frustrated when we weren't progressing at the rate I wanted, and T picked up on that. But after going full intensity, and then backing off, I'm realizing that I am exactly where I should be right now. Some progress does take time, it can't be forced, especially when some of us take awhile to process everything.

I think everything you mentioned here would make great discussion points for ftt. It's totally normal to be scared of trauma work. You are in control of how fast or slow you go, and you can always change your mind about that. Talk it over more with ftt, and be sure to tell her your experiences and feelings after last week's session - it's important that ftt knows that, so she doesn't push too much to do the trauma work too quickly.