You guys are right.Its not so much like OCD but I wish there were professionals here who can help me figure out my problem once and for all.All I know is that there is a problem.I have never been this confused in my whole life.Now my faith about it being OCD has begun to detoriate.I think I get panick attacks suddenly like for e.g When Im sure that I have got hold of this thing and stuff,suddenly,its hits me that,wat was the solution?And it is again lost and Im back to my past,from where it started it all and solving but thank God,it isnt happening so frequently.But guys,this is not normal ,right.I want my old-self to be back.Right now I feel like,there are 2 parts of my thoughts,one that is the problem that doesnt seem to go away permanently and its been like 4 yrs!!I just want to think normally and not to be afraid of my own thoughts.How can I do that.

And my ystudy problem,I dont know what this cursed problem is!!Whenver I look at my book,though i can study,but not fully like i used to,cuz I get the same 3yr old image stuck in my head!!When i was depressed,I couldnt concentrate.But now there are no more bullies,no more making fun of,but i dunno its still there!X((( Atleast i just want to fully concentrate on my studies....................