As some of you may know, I have a blood disorder that requires I go for blood tests monthly.

I am not afraid of needles...but I have a problem.

Because both my brothers died from IV use, one overdosed on heroin the other died from AIDS, I am triggered everytime that needle comes my way.

I always hear, "oh it's okay" lots of people are afraid of needles, but that's not exactly what is bothering me. It's the death trigger.

I rarely have the same person take my blood so it seems exhuasting to me to even try to explain and I'm not sure I even want to.

It's just weird that out of all the disorders in the world I coulda got...mine has to deal with needles.

Maybe there's a lesson somewhere in this...I don't know.

That's it...thanks for listening.

Petunia