Thanks Reg and P7- It so helps to hear soothing words when I am freaking out about this stuff.

Ftt knows about dissoc. She has been explaining a lot about it to me. I am going to go in tomorrow and explain to her what I am afraid will happen and then now knowing what I said. And then being embarrassed. She is good, and I trust her so far.

I wrote a lot of things in a journal so I can remember what I want to say.

Deep breath.....