OMG! Wow. I just cant believe all of the beautiful hugs you all gave me. It makes me feel so good and so much better. I read through each hug slowly and it is making me cry. I feel like you DO care about me. You are all so incredibly special to me. I cant describe my feelings in words. Special and precious arent good enough words for how I feel about the friends I have made here.

I dont know why I get into these moments of believing no one likes me, I should go away and disappear because I am not wanted around here or anywhere. Then, I go on to tell myself how immature I am being. And I dont dare tell anyone. I want to go to bed, pull the covers over my head and feel alone. It can be very difficult to get out of that kind of mood. And so difficult for me in those moments to ask for some extra care and a hug. At my core I feel unworthy and I dont deserve to ask for hugs and love. That other people are the really deserving ones, they need love so much more than me. But.....I did it. I needed a hug, and even if I was embarrassed, I asked and you hugged me. If I didnt ask, I wouldnt have known. Phew. This was a lesson for me.

I feel so much better. So much. Wow. Thank you