Thank you everyone for replying.
I'm okay now. I know everything everyone said is true, but it's hard to do sometimes. I've recently just gone through some hard times, I still don't know if my life is back on track yet, and with medical school application going on, it put a lot of stress on me. I feel as if I'm not out of the tunnel yet, so I'm trying to rebuild my life one step at a time, but sometimes I fall back one step. I'm trying though.
Thank you all again so much.