**trigger just in case..."

I think of it this way (simplistically). Some people are feeling bad and think "I wish I was dead". What I think they may mean and what I meant when I would say/feel this way was I WISH I COULD STOP HURTING SO BAD THAT I WANT TO DIE.

I was in real at one point where I became hopeless and thought out - in detail - how i was going to exit life if something didn't get better SOON.

Thankfully I called a crisis-line and it lead to me finding my first genuine help with the painful issues of my past.

This is a touchy subject and I hope I did not distress anyone, my motive was just the opposite. I only wrote from my own experiences, I make no claim to having proper training in this area