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Since beginning to remember the abuse I suffered at the hand of my mother when I was a child, I've had one incident last week where I was able to do self-hypnosis and get into the experience of going through it again. I wasn't scared at the time. But since then, I've noticed I've been experiencing a startle response and my depression has worsened.
Don't know yet if I need to do anything medically, it may be managable without meds but I have to do this because I have to forgive her and I can't forgive her until I take the memories out and shake the dust off of them so I can retire them permanently. I'm working with my T and am participating in an Intensive Outpatient Program 3-5 days a week so the support is there. Just hate trying to get the doctor appt at the clinic I go to, it's a major hurdle. I don't want to rush this work. Seeing the reaction after this first one, I'm a bit leary to move ahead. It's more painful than I expected.
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 Vickie
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