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I have talked before about my daughter and how she is
with her anger etc, so I finally left and the truth is there is no real guilt for that I really thought there would be lots of guilt and tears but no I hardly cried at all sure I miss my son and my smoky ( cat) but not really her or him (ex)
why is that not sure really,not even sure I care to know but now my daughter is telling me that I have to earn a relationship with her huh wtf I said to her well sweety you will need to do the same because you are the one that pushed to far all the time yelling and screaming and throwing things and kicking hitting etc etc etc, but hey guess what no it was not her at all it was all me all my fault well heck yea I take responsability for my part sure but I wont take hers no way.
She asked will we ever see you again and I said yes you can come here and I can go there well that meet with Im not going down there I asked why not I wont fly she said so I told her she can catch a train or a bus but again no way well whatever I love my kids but why is it that she makes me feel so I do not even know anymore what she makes me feel if I get a little loud when talking to her I am yelling despite the fact that I have a naturally loud voice
they do not ring me nor initiate conversation on msn with me so do you think it wrong if I simply stop and wait for them to come to me?.
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