Chaotic and Skeski--i am RIGHT with you guys on this topic! It has been close to 2 years I've seen her, and I am just beginning to start to trust her...a little bit. I don't even like using the word "trust"...in my head I don't have trust issues:its not like I think she is going to blab anything about me, and I know probably anything I would say she wouldn't judge--yet I still get nervous before every single session!

I have commented on that I think my body must be telling me something that my head isn't getting, otherwise why would I always get so nervous? She whole-heartedly agrees

What I do agree with is that she is one patient woman. She has repeated time and time again that she is not going anywhere. I have always dismissed it, like "well, SURE, I am paying you!!"...but I think she meant it as reassuring. Lol. Another thing I liked was her saying to me once (or twice) that I don't really seem to believe in therapy. That talking isn't going to do me any good. She says this as an observation and hasn't seemed to take any personal offense to it.

All that being said, its HARD! I've never been like "yes! I like her!" I have waivered between feeling neutral or her thinking I am the most pathetic/whiny client ever. I just figured out that I am afraid that she sees me as this person with no REAL problems-there was no abuse, life went pretty smooth...etc--and yet I'm stuck and afraid of life. That she will give me suggestions and then get annoyed with me if I don't do whatever it is to help myself.