i don't know if you would consider this ocd but i used to do compulsive actions for example always closing the curtains and also things like always putting my shoes in the same place. sometime within the past two months i had a bad nightmare which was a bit violent which seemed so real for example it was the same house and everything. for no reason, i'll keep having the same image from the nightmare pop into my head not all the time but sometimes. also if i read about something or see something violent on tv or in the paper, i'll get this image in my head of it which keeps popping up. i also keep having images of things i have seen on tv in the past although not really violent, were a bit unsettling.

that never used to happen before and these thoughts are intrusive. i'm not a violent person what so ever and these images or thoughts always distress me. if i don't think about it, they sometimes pop up. i sometimes get flashes of other random violent things happening. one of them involves stabbing my mother. now i love my mother dearly and it distresses me just writing about it let alone having the thought of it. another thing is sme of these images are mostly the same thing over and over and they are not really all that graphic. the only other thing i can think of which may have caused this is i was watching one of these reaction videos (saw it in a comment and guess i was just curious). while it did not show anything violent, i could hear what was going on and it freaked me out. this image of it just kept popping into my head even though i didn't see anything. this was before i had the nightmare though i'm not sure if it had anything to do with it. i'm thinking it may have had something to do with that or the nightmare since i don't remember having these thoughts or images before that.

my family and i have been searching for new houses in another state and i don't know if that brought some of this on since we've been looking for a bit before this happened.

i should also say that it's kind of affecting my outlook by making me a bit depressed and even when i don't have these thoughts or am trying not to think about it, it's still in the back of my mind not the thought themselves but the fact that i had these thoughts.

sometimes when i would be watching tv, random violent thoughts would pop into my head just out of nowhere although i was not watching anything violent. some days are a bit better than others though i don't know why.

also, i don't know if this makes sense but some images, thoughts ect will be sort of faint in my mind. does anyone know what i mean?