Thanks guys,

I have been reading up on low self esteem and writting a lot in my journals. I have neglected them for so long that now I can not stop. I am speaking regularly with my friends and I have been going for local walks mainly in my local park.

I know I have taken the 1st huge step and I feel so lucky that I did and so happy that I did. My mates are now looking at me rather than me looking at them.

I think I have a long way to go to be "normal"- define it again?? But I hopefully am getting somewhere.

I am still having my moments but hey I am only human.

I will keep you guys updated

Ps...

If I am not Clinically Depressed what could I be? Just a low mood? I need to get over my protective sheet that I put up, my happy mask I always wear and my in-destructable attitude.

Its ackward for me as I am not use to crying and thats all I am doing