wi...thanks again

chestnuts sound good as long as I can put them in a slingshot and take aim at the ex

I am struggling with anger, grief, and I'm soul weary from all of this
add in being overwhelmed by the sheer amount of work that is involved
and I'm ready to grab the money and run

but I'll swallow those feelings because if I do not, it's going to get very ugly.

the biggest trigger/flashback feeling is one of being helpless with so much coming at me
I know I'm not helpless, but I do not see the crack that is letting in the light