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Originally Posted by treehouse
((((((((((((((((((((Big Sam)))))))))))))))))))) 
Yikes  I am so, so, SO sorry to hear the situation you are in. I know you will dig your way out, but for right now, it sounds like it just sucks. Like everything just hit at once. Ugh!
I really think that you need to call T, TOMORROW, explain what is going on, and ask if there is any way he can still work with you. Will it be hard to ask?? Yes. But you have been with him a long time, he cares about you, and if there is a way he can help you through this, I'm sure he'll want to figure out what that is. Most T's have a few slots for sliding scale or pro bono work...you won't know unless you ask. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Your T knows how to take care of himself...if he can't do it, he will tell you. But if he can, he will.
Will you do that??
In the meantime, you can come here and vent all you want (and my PM box is open too!) and lots of people will listen and try to help.
Lots and lots and LOTS of  to you. I'm sorry things are so hard. |
(((((((((TREE)))))))))
I will try to sum up the courage to call him up today, but I really don't think I can ask him very much. I'm not sure he can do anything pro-bono due to his really busy office schedule and that I'm not so sure that he's the decision maker on that. In part, it upsets me quite a bit and makes me depressed to talk about things going on right now, including this specific situation, as it triggers depression and anxiety... a bad mixture.
The thing is that it is difficult right now to even find transportation to his office, considering that I don't live there anymore and have no car, thus depending on others who aren't that dependable. Additionally, I can't really afford to pay anything for sliding scale after this week either.
Money for transportation includes gas both ways.
I can call him up sometime, but I doubt that I can get in this week before my insurance ends. I signed up for some veterans benefits, so maybe I'll have to see what I can tap into money-wise on that end. I did start seeing a clinician locally for my ADHD medication, and I need to call her up regarding this situation as well. I told her during my first (and only) visit that my insurance was going to run out soon, but I didn't know when. Now I know when and it's rather sudden.
I'm going to ask for help from whatever resources I think are good and safe ones. My T surely will understand if I breach this topic with him, but I'm not sure I want to chance feeling worse than I currently do right now, which is possible if the pro-bono discussion comes to place.
I qualify for vocational rehabilitation, so I definitely am going to place a call into them in a moment and complete the requisite paperwork. I haven't showered for a few days which for me is a part of the tiredness I feel from the depressing and anxiety provoking circumstances I am dealing with. I hate feeling like I failed and am a failure, which happens sometimes. I even skipped out on a meeting with my attorney last week, on purpose---and didn't even call him. It's not like he cares (actually he's a real jerk and has lied to me on more than one occasion), its just that I don't like to give into my negative emotions.
SAM