((((((n2euforia))))))) Dear, I can honestly say that I am "succeeding" right now, but I might well crash tomorrow, and there won't be a blasted thing I can do about it. It has happened before, and there wasn't anything I could do about it then, either. See, it's not that you "lack" all of these qualities that are so wonderfull, it's that you HAVE a disease that makes your life a H-ll right now. There is a big difference. Don't let the lies win, because absolutely no one is beyond help, even though it might feel that way. You sound mad, N2euforia. Good: better than curling up silently. Keep posting.
Oh yeah. Don't succeed because soemone wants to . I count success as every day I lie down and know I have made it through another day and gotten my kids through with me. There was a time I wasn't so sure I could do it. Keep posting.