(((((((Catherine))))))
I hear the feelings of being overwhelmed, exhausted, angry, and all that goes with them....
The crack is there and so is the light. use a bat to bite on. i completely understand the need to hold it all together and get thru---not that simple and not at all comfortable.
I am here. I will listen. I will provide a slingshot and a pile of unshelled chestnuts--they still have that prickly coat on them that smarts when you try and pick them up
I offer a hand, and ear and a wide shoulder when you need one.
one step in front of the other
make lists
write yourself notes
throw darts at pic of ex
depend on council and your T and anyone else who is there.

The light is there
the crack is there
and you will find it soon.