Usually I don't write much on this forum. I don't understand all of what you are going through because the abuse I have faced is so minor...especially compared to other issues I have, but I do relate in the trying to share and the reactions recieved. Everyone used to think I had the perfect life and that I was so together and happy. Slowly I started to break down as pain just kept building inside of me. As I started to get help and open up more people either thought I was lying or exagerating. Now I usually get the, "be happy, your life is so much better than mine"...if only they knew, but if I open up then it is because "your just trying to get attention." I ended up coming to psychcentral and for the first time in my life people understood and wern't treating me that way. I am so glad you are able to open up on here, and am proud of everyone for their ability to relate to and/or support the others on here.