((((MUE)))) I am still holding you while you cry . Im sitting with you next to you. I know that feeling of wanting someone to sit with you while you cry and not even say anything.

For group, you also dont have to say anything if you dont want to. When I was in group just listening it helped so much that I began to participate even though I didnt think I would. I have a feeling if you listen and make some small attempt at participating they will help you. Maybe mention something about your dad. Or being alone. Or whatever is most pressing on your mind. Thursday is a really long wait. It feels like an eternity when you are crying all the time OH, MUE! I hope you can reach out in some way to somebody. There is nobody in RL who you can try to talk to?

This might sound like a really bad question, but are you on any meds? I dont mean to say you need to be medicated up, but maybe an AD?

Im sitting in the room with you, holding your hand. I so know that lonely feeling of not having anyone....even if there are people around you.