I can really relate to this! I have talked a lot with my T about why I sometimes hold back. In one very interesting session, I told T that I was afraid to completely let go because I had this crazy fear of T leaving me, of losing T forever. We talked and talked and talked about it, and the fear slowly went away, so that I was able to open up more. T has learned that I need reassurance, so she has been telling me how she will be there for me, and it has really helped me to feel safe with T and open up more.

I think it's a great discussion to have with your T! I never thought I had a fear of abandonment until that fear came up, that if T saw my true colors, she would leave me.