Trauma work is rough.... so go easy on yourself. I understand about wishing T would be able to see me 2x/wk Man do I feel like I need it. Thankfully he is allowing me to email him. He does not usually write back. But when it gets bad with things, he does write back. So that helps. I even offered to pay him for his time with email but he brushed that off.

Keeping a journal is also excellent idea. In fact, I have three of them. One for pictures only to help memory / flashback recordings for T. The other is a normal T journal where I record all sorts of stuff that happen. Then I have another that belongs to my angy alter who holds most of the deepest pain.

Safe hugs to you!!!!