Deli,
While this isn't exactly the same thing, I had some catastrophic thoughts going on for a while. My mom had been having some health issues and my parents weren't telling me when things happened (eg she ended up in the ER). I finally told them that they had to tell me every time something went wrong because they were not telling me and I was finding out later. It was making me worry all the time that something had happened that they hadn't told me about. I made them promise.

It is that you want your Pdoc to promise to tell you if he changes his opinion of you that brought up this thought. And now I realize it isn't connected at all, but Ive taken the energy to write it so I'm going to post it. It sounded better in my head.

I hope you feel better soon, it sucks to be sick. I'm glad you were able to talk to pdoc and get an appointment set up for friday. Defenitiely talk to him about what has happened. I always know when my pdoc is going on vacation even if I don't have a scheduled appointment during that time incase I need something. See if you can set that up with him so in the future you will know if he is gone. Good Luck