thanks but.. i dont think i ever get calmer nights..
just more or less upsetting nightmares.. meh...

triggers


I dreamt about the beating again. then changed to my brothers funeral. my father was there. in the dream he was saying if you had just died that day when u were 14.. this is your brothers punishment for calling 112 (dutch 991)..
he pushes me in the grave ... earth comes...

i dont know why i have so many diff dreams lately. usually its just a few selected ones, that willl usually be a little bit diff each night but not this much.. and maybe.. sometimes i dream more about the s/abuse sometimes more about my brother sometimes more about the accident with my eye... but lately its all over the place.. . something else everynight it seems..