((((((((((((((jenasweetie)))))))))))))))), I believe I read an earlier post of yours, or perhaps a more recent one, where you mentioned that you had given up drinking and were wondering if this might cause some emotional reaction. Well, it certainly can, and much of it fits with what you are describing above. Actually, you may have had these feelings for much longer that you many realize, but the alcohol, even in binges, covered them up. Giving up drinking can seem like you are losing all the imp things in your life; that once you had it together, but now it is crumbling. It's the defense and lack of inhibitions created [for, oh, such a short time] by the alcohol that are crumbling, and you may be facing difficult issues in your life head on for the first time. If this is wrong, please feel free to shout me down, as my memory is very poor, but I recall your username, because I looked at it after inviting you to write me at any time. Please consult a therapist of psychiatrist to see if some type of treatment would benefit you, before these feelings go further. Caring About You - billieJ